The 25th job I did...again the same company i worked before with... But, this time the sales that I target were really disappointed myself as well as my colleague... I never expect I'm going to have my sales that less truly said, when I was looking at other peoples sales, of course the unbalanced in my heart was there...but I want to make sure myself do not look that as a main point... As long as I did my best in order to get run some business and got some commission will do...I hope I can be a better salesperson in shortcoming as I was considered as a senior part timer, so my commission is 2-3-4% basis I will work harder on coming book fest in KLCC, so that i can earn more commission from the sales...

On the first day (which means yesterday) , I had only sold out the Automoblox (small car) three items with RM100. That was my only sales for the whole day. Yet, I found out, all my learning skills from salesperson Lwin was all been put aside. I never show my real talented salesperson as I did in previous fair such as in The Mines and Johor City Square. So, I tried my best and achieve a higher sales figure today by accumulating up to RM529.40. There were few shortlisted items such as Camelot (1), Day and Night (2), Smart Car(1) and Roadblock(1). The other one item was the one i specially bought for someone...

Today I din do anything related to my own field..It’s too tiring..So, I made up my mind, once I come back from work tomorrow, I’ll start to do until finish so that I can enjoy my holiday well…

I seen a disabled patient undergone the conventional simulation today...It was a very tough
decision made by her and lots of obstacles been facing through all the while until the day she
was sent into this Room16 for a simulation planning..

This examination has been understood by her, yet she was so emotionally uncontrolled
causing her tears to flow unstoppable...the team were there to console her and put herself
in a stronger mind in order to finish the simulation...As what I listened to patient's words, she
was too scared of needle because maybe, she had a very bad experience in her previous time..

She was too pity all the way, so I chose to stay close with her and explaining each and every
sequence so that she knew what we were going to do on her...as time goes by, she's getting
even better...this was a good sign shown by her...she was complaining the pain was already irradiate
from anterior to posterior region and been diagnosed with cervical carcinoma stage IIIb.

As a radiographer mindset, I will always pray that, every patient that i encountered for now, and in
future I'll hope the same things that, they will getting in a better form of course my intention of it...

Journals lot need to be digested...It's not easy to keep on reading all the articles, the process of
understanding the content is tough....All the best !

Today was the date set by my supervisor for 2nd meeting...i had work out for
the proposal till 4.30am in the morning...I made myself that stressful but actually
i need not to...

I learnt from the mistake and i will never repeat the same mistake again...no more
stress..work it out relax...I submitted my proposal but he never received it as he told
me i can still make it in a better form...he did not pull me down, perhaps he told me,
that's a hard work from you, it's not bad, you got the content and what i want you to
do is , I want you to understand the concept of the title and the reasons behind that...
It makes me more difficult to handle...I know I'm not that good in PET-CT, but when
moment i asked if there were any previous seniors done the thesis somehow related to
this, the answer - there were none of your seniors did it, you are the first person encounter
with this...

It turning my dim candle to a brighter one...I will perform a better task and do a better thesis
so that for future reference there will people really appreciate my hard work as the field was
just new to our country hospitality technology...Currently, there were two PET center in Penang,
one in Wijaya, one in UPM (Hospital Serdang) and the other was in Putrajaya. Maybe others
center will have this modalities...as far as I'm concern that are the only few center will have...

Today will be a rest day for...

Two days Maybank Treats Fair was just over...I found my way home...Safe !

Anyway, now i'm rushing out of time, gonna summit my proposal to my lecturer

next morning..

Yeah !

Keep it up...all the hard work and work hard ...

Today gonna be my 24 job that i had done throughout my life....
No more no less...Guess, what i work as .............?

Olympus....Gosh....it's really new to me...
I've struggle for four hours until 2pm, i'm hitting on the sales chart
with the figure 0 (nil) sale...

Things had changed once after my lunch meal....MacD MacChicken
medium size...there was nothing to suit to my appetite...Price gone up,
I felt I'm new to the environment plus the mixture kind of feelings,
after none of the camera has been sold...

I got it right, my mindset, my soul, my determination, my courage
and my ambitious to tell me, you're not going to lose any encounter in
you...i got a courage message from someone else...i got a positive
 statement from someone else on facebook wall...i manage to get myself
out from the tunnel with darkness, surrounded my devils and awkward
surrounding...

All these boost me around to be a better one to excel in the things I need
to compete for no matter in the working life or study life or social life....
Everything for me need to achieve and leads to the perfection...Yes I did it...
I sold out 6items...

Between, part of the journey, i met the wrong way incident again twice...
morning and night...I'm gonna laugh at myself, but i did not...I'm gonna
say myself that noob, but i couldn't saying anything out from my mindset...
the terrible was I was on my way back from Mid Valley to Setapak, but got it
out from the direction I wanted to be..Merdeka Stadium was the next destination..
Get it past through, to look for better eye field...Jalan Hang Tuah..Jalan Bukit Bintang
Jalan Imbi...again shooting up out far from that...Jalan Loke Yew...

Haha..i guess, I reached the place I went for clinical exam last semester...It was !!
I'm gonna took an U-turn back to Setapak...Eventually.................................god sake !
I deserved a special meal for my reward...I wanna take some time for sleep....
Tomorrow will start on my engine for thesis proposal again...Can make it or not ?

My life is an expression of my talents and abilities...
I got the talent but i couldn't figure out right now, but god will fair to
everyone..he'll show me the right path for me to achieve that goal...
PLACEBO EFFECT...i can handle it my proposal....

PET reconstruction method...

It's time for me to rush for the thesis proposal...
although it is not a proper one but, i will still work it out nicely...
PET-CT reconstruction method...i believe in you..
be the change if you want to see the world !!
quotation form ' Mahatma Gandhi '

Wah....!!
Finally after struggle for a few weeks time, i manage to
complete on my executive summary....
WHAT'S NEXT ?
Proposal.........................

Deaf vs Mute

      A beautiful baby girl was born until the her life was full of miserable pathway to go for. It's unexpected for anyone to see a human has deformity of human senses. Although she was born with these abnormality or some other form of diseases causing her to make her life suffer, nevertheless she has never gave up her life.  This was the scenario I've been seen in the practical in somewhere.
      A mother who has deliver a baby blossom with full of love has been graded as the world greatest person because she introduces us the beauty of life nature and the place we have to be a better person. A deaf person can be consider mute person or in the other way round ? A mute person still can have a normal hearing system, so it might can understand what people are trying to instruct while a deaf person could not sense any hearing, of course they can't even speak out the proper intonation of the languages.
      During the time I was placed in the radiotherapy department, i saw this girl who was deaf and mute, yet has been installed a tracheostomy tube around the thyroid cartilage. It was very suffering i can imagined how she feels at. Even when the time she was lying down on the couch where the flame and saliva mixing around and get all those stucked in the upper airway(the region of nasopharynx). Besides, during the whole course of treatment, we must put on the immobilizer known as thermoplastic mask (beam directing shell) on her facial area in order to make herself immobilized.
      When the thing put on the facial region of course the patient must be struggling around in order to free herself to get some fresh air to breathe via the tracheostomy tube being implanted. The patient mental status must be well-maintained throughout the course of treatment. A deaf and mute patient could not voice out of any uncomfortable position, the only way she can do it was just to rebel anyway.
      What I'm trying to share here was the love shown my mother was infinite. Her mother has taken care her all the while until the the day she was suffering from the cancer she had, accompanied her all the way to complete her treatment for the sake of her daughter life. Maybe in my mind I was thinking, if she was born deaf and mute, she can't even recognize the languages been spoken up, the languages that we use to converse with each another and even worse how a mute and deaf person going to balance up the normal upbringing like me.
      We guys are born as a beautiful baby boy or girl, what do we need to demand for extra in comparison with those others who has not really enjoy the life when they just started to step into this world and get vanished in a single second. Life is short, we must always appreciated what do we have and not condemn on what we don't have. Stay on track to be a better person to contribute to the nation, society and public.